well that was short-lived.

Things were amazing such a short time ago. Here I am on my own again. It hurts. A lot. Had I known it would be the last time, I would have said more. I would have savored the last kiss, the last time we made love. I would have tried to make a point of remembering every last detail.

My eyes are surprisingly dry. There are tears, but not the torrents that are usually my way. Perhaps I knew it was coming, despite hoping against hope that the clock was not running out on us. My main regret are my own actions which pushed up the date of our inevitable parting.

I really sincerely hoped that I could have been enough for you. A reason to stay. Maybe I hoped too high.

*sigh*


Are there no blinders on lights that glare
White noise on the eyes
From gas station lights and reflected ice glare
So that i can walk home by moonlight
Alone

Or can we go out to where the wind howls and stand to lean up against the trees
They've grown up so tall that you can't see the house
It's a fortress now but you know how it used to be
I can lie to myself
And say i like it
But i would love it if you were here

These words on paper smell like you
Associated in random thought
On my lips the words turn blue
Evidence i'm feeling lost
I can lie to myself
And say i like it
But i would love it if you were here
I'm just sad for myself
Cause i know you're clear
But i would love it if you were here

I can just see you show me your garden
I thought you'd grow roses and grapes on low vines
I wanted to know you when we were both older
I thought there'd be more of those wonderful times
I can lie to myself
And say i like it
But i would love it if you were here
I'm just sad for myself
Cause i know you're clear
But i would love it if you were here
You were here
Yes you were
Yes you were

- copyright, Sarah Harmer