A comparison in deprivation

So I went to my parents this weekend. Friday night I was all happy because the leather pants that were downright uncomfortable to wear the last time I tried them on are fitting again.

So the next morning I was curious, and since I don't own a scale at home, I jumped on my moms scale. Gah. I was not a happy camper. So I've made a decision, and I'm finally going to bite the bullet and join Weight Watchers. I've seen it work for other people, and frankly, this is beyond just a self-image thing. 230 lbs on a 5'5" frame, there's no way that can be good for me.

Since the program is costly, my parents have been kind enough to offer to pay for me to go, as long as I stick to it. Keep my diaries, go to the meetings. It's like I'm a recovering alchoholic.

Today was day one. I stuck within my points thing, and drank the required water but it's not been easy. I had grown accustomed to just eating whenever I felt like it, so I was hungry quite a bit today. It's gonna be a tough couple of days/weeks/however long it takes to get accustomed to a lesser intake.

It's harder than quitting smoking (which I am still working on as well). For a few reasons

- When I quit smoking , I didn't have cupboards full of cigarettes at my disposal.
- I don't have two children who require cigarettes to live. I do have small children do need to eat, and that enjoy the occasional treat, so that means they are in the house, and I gotta either not touch em, or go really easy on em. Fortunately I was not in the habit of having a LOT of junk in the house, just maybe a bag of cookies a week, and cereal bars
- It didn't cost me 50 bucks more a week to not smoke. Healthy food is more expensive than junk food. No wonder people are fat. Organic food is even moreso.
- There are no rules against eating indoors, or in public areas, or in class. The anti-smoking restrictions help to at least make you cut down.
- You can't advertise cigarettes in Canada
- Nicotine is out of your system in 2-4 days. The need for food is always there.
- Don't have to schedule a sitter or arrange for the kids to go to their dads while I go to meetings to not smoke

The good thing, I can eat all the fuckin' sushi I want. Woot, go sushi. I usually get a thing of it from the deli on mondays. The girls have Lunchables. Reagan calls the sushi kit, mommys lunchable. mmm. yummy.

This also means I have to start packing lunches for school, as the fresh grille is probably off limits, as is the pizza pizza kiosk, and lets face it, the salad bar is gonna get real old, real fast.

Thankfully I haven't been drinking a lot lately, because that all adds up. A shot of rye is like 2 points. If you don't remember to stick with diet pop or water, then you're looking at 5 points a drink.

So now I say goodbye to many of the things I loved. Kraft dinner, Pizza, Cafe Mochas, Mostly all Tim Hortons products other than coffee, Processed cheese (although I cut that out a long time ago) Lunch meats, etc etc. Only on special occasions shall we meet from here on in.

Oh if anyone is interested, my high range goal is 50 lbs over the next 6-8 months. 10 pounds a month is at the high range of a healthy weight loss, so I think I'm being pretty fair with myself. 80 lbs over the next two years. Keep your fingers crossed.

Oh, I might want to add, that I'm usually against dieting on a level of principal, the medias unrealistic pressure on women and whatnot, but I figure on this one, my health outweighs my principles.